Relaspe Done.. now i Move on and Do Better

I never went to the gym this week. It was a crazy busy week. I ended up working two day shifts. I forgot how crazy day shifts can be. They are busy in t here own way and can be so much more stressful then the weekends. Since my mom was in town i worked some day shifts to make it easier on myself or so i thought. I can't believe i am saying this- aside for being up for 24 hours, i actually like working night shifts once a week. With that being said, I worked Monday and came home and found my mom wracked with a raging fever and sleeping through a loud house full of boys. When she woke up in the morning she was still sick and hurting so bad. Her fractured rib was killing her from laying on the couch and rigoring with the fever. She was in tears. I called her heme onc md and wanted some pain meds- but when i got through I was told to take her to the ED. That's when it hit me she was sick agian. I took her to the ED and they did a work up. She had a raging bladder infection. She got some more pain medicine and antibiotics. 3 days later she was her self agian. It was such a reality check. In the mist of this i have manged to forget everything i have been working towards. I didn't go to the gym i ate shitty and now i fell shitty. I really felt my body missing that release i was getting from it. I was in a perpeptual circle of destruciton... i forgot my mantra "not helpfull, helpful...." I have to remember that i have to live by that...

Love Creek Orchards, Medina Texas

Love Creek Orchards, Medina Texas
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My PRIDE and JOY Massimo and Nicolo. 2nd year in a row i got this picture. I am gonna keep taking it as long as they can still get up that bale of hay..

Love Creek Orchards, Medina Texas

Love Creek Orchards, Medina Texas
Originally uploaded by cheska732

My little guy, Nicolo and myself at Love Creek Orchards. I was hoping to get a family shot. But at one time or anther someone wouldn't cooperate. so no family shot.. Just pictures. But that's okay. We still had a great time.

Love Creek Orchards, Medina Texas

Love Creek Orchards, Medina Texas
Originally uploaded by cheska732

We had a great weekend. Spent the better part of Saturday at Love Creek Orchards in Medina Texas. The weather was over cast- but the wind would blow and it felt great. The kids had a great time. They ran the maze, played with the pumpkins, rode horses goofed around in the teapee, went on a track ride and petting zoo. They were exhausted by the time we head back to the camper. The rest of the afternoon, they just had a good time. It was such a great weekend. It was good to spend time with them and my husband.

Great Weekend Topped off with Shitty news

We had such a wonderful weekend. Went to Lake Medina and then spent a day at Love Creek Orchards followed by day of just letting the kids run around. Got the phone call from my mother. Her cancer is back and it has spread to her bones. She is going in to talk to the doctor. He says he has tricks up his sleeve.  They all say that. I cried the whole way home from the best weekend.  

Getting ready for a Fabulous Weekend Yah!!

I am so excited. We are planning a long weekend get away with the boys. We are going with our camper to a very quite lake- called Lake Medina. The RV resort is so quite and cozy. It is perfect for us. We are going to hang around do some fishing , throw rocks in the lake and most importantly Go to LOVE CREEK ORCHARDS in Medina, Texas.   www.lovecreekorchards.com It is the cutest little apple orchard south of the Mason Dixson Line.  It is truly organic - right down to the way they keep bugs off there trees.  They also have the coolest pumpkin patch.  I can't wait to take the kids there.  The best part might have to be their apple ice cream and apple pie! Each pie is made with 5 lbs of apples and approx 630 calories a slice.. yummmmm i can taste it now.  These pictures where from last year. Stay posted for this years.

Feeling GOOD!!

Okay, okay, it is a new month and still going strong. I have managed to make myself a priority. Which is good. I have signed the kids up for swim classes which is going to compromise my full time to work out. It is hard with the restrictions at the gym how long they can stay. What i may do on Tuesdays is go in the am and just go back int he pm with the little guy and goof off in the pool with him. If i can't i can just do cardio when we go in the afternoon.. I feel my clothes getting bigger and my ankles are there more then there not. 19 days of doing what it right and 20 days since i took the steps to make it right. One day at a time. I FEEL GREAT- the BEST i have felt in a long time. I love the endorphins I am releasing and what they are making me accomplish.