Danskin 2011

WOW I finally did it 3 years after this adventure began. i finished under 2 hours. Not by much but it's a start.  I was pumped, i even posted pictures on FB of me in my tri suit. I walked around the venue like I owned it, only to find out when i looked at the pictures i got today that i looked huge.   You can tell that i felt really good on Sunday. I was smiling. Even a few weeks ago with my son.   Today i got the photos from the picture takers and i looked horrible. It  has not been a good  night. I am not feeling too well about this again.  Saturday, I am going for an evaluation for my caloric burning.  Then i' m supposed to see a nutritionist 2 weeks from now to work on a plan. I got to get rid of this trunk. It's embarrassing, but no one reads this except me..Back to the self pity game all over again.... :(

where have i beena nd what i have been doing...

Well you wouldn't believe it if i told you. I worked very hard this winter and finally decided to take the plunge and sign up for the 1/2 Iron Man in Austin. Oct 25, 2011. Someone who i have been riding with kept saying i can do it and pointed out the things i have done. I did some basic research and I decided it's now or never. I did say in my 40th year and it is my 40 th year. What better way to hit a milestone- knock it off my bucket list. So, i signed up for my first 10K, did it and felt good. Started running for minutes and started realizing i was doing well for me and I thought just maybe i can do it. I started making choices that were better for training and for health. I also got a strength trainer to help me get fit in places i haven't gotten fit in for a long time.  I am see muscles take shape that haven't had definition in a long time. I am also realizing i had Power in some respects but i am not strong. I relied on my legs for a long time. My husband has been great through out this. He supports me and gives my time to get my workouts in. He dropped big numbers in the wt department this winter and has been doing crit races.  He is riding like a serious rider. Impressive times and stamina.

So- here i go again.  Dankin is in a month. I am hoping to be at 2hrs maybe just under.  her i go...

NDQI survey-- got my results back

Oh if today was a day to quit!!! I should have turned and walked away while i had the chance to. I busted my ass helping the unit and what i get in return- SURVEY RESULTS THAT SUCK. of course i took it to heart. I feel sick to my stomach. More frustrated then ever. And not wanting to go back. I have had enough of everything right now. I need a serious break from these people that just drain me. The ones that complain non stop, the ones that whine about everything, claim the do everything and do nothing.

It was embarrassing today to care for a patient after a nurse i hired. A nurse i gave a  chance to. Every chance i give him, he throw a ball of disappointment right back in my face. Week in and week out. I am frustrated beyond belief. 

I am frustrated with everything i have still to do and nothing i can get done. It is getting harder and harder. Don't know if i have it in me to do this anymore.

yeeowwza what a horrible last 24 hours.

Monday i was spent after a long weekend of working out long and hard in the gym Back to back spin classes followed by some weight training. I was exhausted. Tuesday, i headed downtown, got a coffee and started to get nauseated.  I thought it was the coffee on an empty stomach. As the day went on and i answered emails at lunch, my stomach was getting worse by the minute. I ended up walking out of the class 4 times to throw up and sit on the pot. It was nuts. I came home crawled in to bed and froze my ass off with PJ's, fleece and socks on. I took a zofran and my stomach stopped flipping but the spout on the bottom end was still open. This morning i took another zofran, still feeling weak, i stayed home. I went to Sam's club to pick up some stuff came home and sat in front of the computer. I still feel like i got hit by  a truck. I am exhausted. Next week, i am going to sit down and decide my plan for my half marathon and sprint tri this summer.

The last month

It has been absolutely surreal in some aspects. I think of my mom everyday. I miss her. I haven't cried that much. I had a moment when I was shopping wanted to ask her something and she wasn't there. I started to think about all the things I forgot to ask and tell her. I am still waiting for a sign. The funeral was good. Opened up another can of worms when I went home. So weird to be in the house without her there. Sad part her ashes are there while everyone is everywhere else. Christmas is going to be a challenge I know. I am just keeping focused and busy. We joined a different gym. Feeling disloyal to the YMCA but I need the next level. Looking forward to the new year.

Down and around Austin with my Brother today...

city ride with nick my bro by cheska732 at Garmin Connect - Details

 My brother and I went on a great ride all around Austin today.  Started at Jack and Adam's bike shop, down Barton Springs road, up Rollingwood, to Walsh Tarlton, accros 360, up along the frontage road of Mopac, Up  Congress then we stopped at Mellow Johnny's for a coffee then headed up to the Capital, around campus, the stadium, back down Nueces to Jack and Adams. It was cool when we stopped but we worked up a sweat.  Here is a picture of me. I am getting better about wanting my picture taken. it's been a long trip. Still have more to go.

Good Bye Mom, I will miss you and think of you often

After a 5 year battle with breast cancer, my mom went peacefully in her sleep yesterday morning. It was hard to watch, but nothing like she was going through i am sure. The last few days she was in stupor. She was either out of it or she was in pain, moaning and crying. I felt hopeless as some points, felt like i was medicating her too much because of her pain. I wonder if she was out of it because of all the meds she got. She always told me she wanted to be be very comfortable. i hope that is what she got. I am scared that the suppository she got for her fever was what did her in. She died about 30 minutes after she got it. I did get to read her the prayer that i got from the priest. But i wonder if she made it to heaven even if she didn't go to church. i so badly want a sign from her to know she is okay. what is a sign? how will i know it's her?  My heart is heavy and sad. i am in disbelief. i am scared to sleep. I can't imagine my dad and how he feels.  Cancer sucks especially when it takes who you love most. I can't even bring myself to look at stuff she had written. I urgently parted with her things in fear i would not beable to rid them latter on and end up like a hoarder on TV.  My mom was such a great person, she drove me crazy but she loved us in her own way.   i am who i am today because of what she did for me everyday of her life.  She cried that she was sorry, sorry for what i have no idea, what we did at the end was the least i could do for her. I feel better knowing i was with her and she was here instead of ny. i just wish it was sooner..
I love you mom and miss you so much.

Another huge milestone on my path back to me!!

Last Sunday we rode down to Gruene and back to Kyle. It was a tough ride, but not impossible. First time i got a flat. Luckily my mechanic was with me. :). Changed it in no time. The plan is to do another 60 this weekend. Saturday is going to be an easy mid 20 day as the 60 is going to be Sunday. I am looking forward to the challenge. If all goes well first week over 100 miles... whooohoo

DOWN to Gruene and back. by cheska732 at Garmin Connect - Details

Texas Mamma Jamma

Texas Mamma Jamma Sept 25th, 2010

Oh it's on again. This time raising money for Breast cancer.  The Mamma Jamma ride is for those that suffer with breast cancer.  I haven't decided what to ride, the 70 mile or the 100 miler. Either way it's an amount that will make me give it my all for those that are giving it thier all.

Stress is on..

So it has been a productively busy summer. Too busy that writting or blogging has slowed down. Training has been going awesome, until i went on vacation. Tried running down in Port Aransas only to be attacked by mosquitos - that bit through my shorts.. on my butt of all places. I kid you not. I decided to take a break and was all set to get going when i came back. I get back and i got bombarded with morning meetings the whole week and one busy unit. I am looking forward to this weekends ride and hopefully a good thursday and friday.

Sunday 50 miler to New Braunfels by cheska732 at Garmin Connect - Details

Sunday 50 miler to New Braunfels by cheska732 at Garmin Connect - Details here is my first 50 miler in over 25 years.. love the stats and i felt awesome. tired but that's to be expected.

where the heck have i been... why out riding of course!

So my recovery went splendidly if that is a word. I love my results. I am probably the only women in history that didn't want to hear-"they will be fuller and more round!" I was truly loving the flat look.  After 6 weeks of wearing a sports bra i finally got the okay to go get the real bra's. I called my husband and told him i was going to go to Victoria Secret and by bras that weekend. He was like go for it. I my head all i can think about was color and patterns.  The thought did cross my mind what if the plan went down and i didn't have my parachute bra? But as friday rolled around and the anticipation started to build i called my husband and said. hey let me take you to dinner i wanna go to Nordstroms for bra's. I figured i'd go, since i saw this special once on oprah about the way they fit their customers. So in  went.. and met Anna the clerk.  Anna sized me up. I was D cup, but so small in my mind and if i went up a size it was  a c cup. Hell i can live with that... heck it's like a B cup  to me.  I found so many bra's i couldn't stop myself and i didn't  $618.45 i walked out with 10 bra's and matching undies Life was really good. colors, patterns  you name it. Awesome!!


Now what have i been doing? Mile stone's on the bike that's what. My average now is 15.5 mph. up from the 11 i think when i started. I am also doing an average of 50 miles a week mostly more. Last week i clocked 100 miles in for the week.  Bought a top with a built in bra and it fits... whoohooo

Thinking about another sprint tri in october.. i have to get in the water. what to do what to do...

POST Op Weekend

I went back for my follow up and I am allowed to wear my favorite bra i wore when my chest was larger. It was a bra i wore only in the house, but it was very comfortable.  My nipple  very sensitive on the right. The left is numb. I don't know if that is going  to come back in the scheme of things the other side is making up for it as it's super sensitive. :0

We ended up at the bike shop and ran into the CNRA who did my case. I was going stir crazy already. I wanted to do something but i was told i had to wait..

Post op Day 1

I already fell like a million bucks. They look flat, but my doc stated that there were going to be more rounding and the transition can take months or even a year. I feel like a ton has been lifted off my chest.  1200grams on the left and 1100 grams on the right.  I stayed over night, was in surgery for about 5 hours. Meds are really good.

Good Bye Girls...

Today i am going in for my surgery. I am nervous but i have had enough of my large breast. There is absolutely nothing attractive about them. I hate that it's the first thing anyone sees when they meet me for the first time.  The pain i have in my neck and shoulders is ridiculous. I want to stand up straight.  My bras are ugly not to mention tortuous. The itching under my breast wakes me up out of sleep the majority of nights. 
So, my husband might be sad, but understands my limitations. I am so excited.

Danskin 2010

An like that with blink of an eye and sweat dripping down my body it's over and you know what I'd do it again in a heart beat.   My time improved by 10 minutes.. Huge success for me.

Bib

FName

City

State

Div

Age

Sex

ClockTime

Overall

DivPl

Swim

Swimrank

Trans1

Bike

Bikerank

Mph

Trans2

Runrank

Run

Pace

711

FRANCESCA

KYLE

TX

35-39

39

F

02:08:41

1103

172

FRANCESCA  #711

KYLE, TX

Age: 39 Gender: F

Distance	Short
Clock Time	02:08:41
Overall Place	1103 / 1573
Division Place	172 / 230
Swim	00:25:33
Swimrank	1142
Trans1	00:03:43
Bike	00:51:26
Bikerank	937
Mph	13.9
Trans2	00:02:45
Runrank	1287
Run	00:45:11
Pace	00:14:34

 
The swim was pretty rough this year. I actually added some time to my strokes. I ended up getting interrupted by breast stroke rs that keep kicking me, my goggles fogged up and i was just tired.  I was looking at the boyees thinking okay almost there, almost there and it was further then i thought. I came out of the water feeling tired already. I don't remember the  hill being so long or steep from last year. But it was.

T1- okay not too bad, my feet were filthy and my legs felt very heavy, but on the bike i went. It was hot out. I was dripping with sweat. Thank GOD it was not sunny and there was an over cast otherwise i would have been screwed.  My HR at times went up to 170's- that's high for me.  I got stuck on the big hill and had to walk up it at one point, but that was it.  I okay. I thought the women were a bit more rude this year, show offs.

I came back from the bike and got to the rack and i went into far on my rack line. i looked down and there was the same color towel and same shoes as me on the ground. I know i was depriving my brain of O2- but i was like how did i do that. then i realized i was at the wrong set up..T2 went okay. i  got my shoes on, my feet were filthy, off on the run.

I only walked one area. my time was under 15 minutes. I was wheezy at a point and i thought i was gonna vomit about two times. Not joking.  Nikki came and helped me up the last hill, i thought i was gonna die. I did it and the kids crossed the finish line with me.  I did it and I can't wait to do it again.

OBTW- my really age is 38- race age 39 :)

Morning wog for me a jog by cheska732 at Garmin Connect - Details

Morning wog for me a jog by cheska732 at Garmin Connect - Details

I managed to do the miles under 15 minutes.. progress crazy progress.. :) so happy.

This is one of my favorite blogs to read.

I found this blog by complete accident, while i was researching the Garmin 310XT.  Reading his blog was the finally piece i needed to decide on what i was going to do.  I enjoy reading his bog.  He is a really good writer and very informative.  I envy the amount of time he has to train. I am curious to see when he and the girl are going to get engaged... hint, hint...

Thanks for your inspiration, sorry about your recent accident- keep the writing coming as a newbie to the sport- it is so helpful and non intimidating.

thanks.


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Memorial Day weekend

The weekend is here and in the back of my mind i am very Thankful for all those that have suffered so I am my family can be free.

But in the front of my mind i am thinking about a great weekend. My younger son and I were at home doing stuff around the house while my older son and husband went fishing. My oldest son caught a 30 inch red fish amongst others and they were all keepers.  My husband reported maxing out in 2 hours of hitting the pier.  It was a really good weekend for the two of them.

They came back on Sunday and Monday we spent at our neighbor's house.  We hung out laughed a little and swam in their pool.  My little son, started the day jumping cautiously into my arms in the pools with his life jacket on.  Soon he was telling me to move over, some how he started doggie paddling while he was heading towards the steps. Not much later about 5 minutes he was doggie paddling around the pool like a fool.  So little guys started swimming like that.

2010 Tour De Cure

Yep!! Yet another accomplishment. I completed a Tour De Cure. Day I- 32 miles and Day II 25 miles. I completed the first day strong.  We rode from Retama Park headed east over the highway looped around and came back. I felt great and I was excited. Intially, i was mad i chose the shorter distance, but glad i did as i still have to do the Danskin.  But, felt like i completed it strong and had plenty of reserve.  I managed only one karbunkle and had to switch my watch to Bike from Run mode. The second day was from San Marcos (Texas State University) to Akin High School in Austin.  The ride was majority on rodes Kerman and i normally ride on. In fact, we found a new road that we can ride. It's gonna be awesome.The second karbunkle was my watch not downloading the info from the ride. I don't know if the low battery had anything to do with it.
When we finally came home we decided to sign up and go for the Tour of Roses, even if i have the surgery I should be okay as the ride is in November.

So all in all a GREAT WEEKEND. Lots accomplished and confidence is very high..