Giving Time to Me... It's been a long time.

September 12, 2008 Okay, so here I am a few months or so until my 37th birthday, I look at myself in the mirror and don't recognize who i have become. I am easily 150lbs overweight. I don't like who i have become as a person. The last few years have been very stressful financially. When i sit here and type i realize- i made my priority to sit and eat and worry about what tomorrow will bring- which creditor is going to call... and it put me in a downward spiral of self pity and depression. I cracked a few months ago and sought the help of a professional He have me light. Someone with a different perspective on what i was going through and how i saw it. I came up with a mantra- HeLPFul- vs NoT HeLPFul... it is working and I am feeling better about myself. It gave me the self confidence i needed to take steps to improve my overall health. I Joined the YMCA!! I love it and they have programs that are me. They have a pool and water fitness classes. Most improtantly they have baby sitters.. i can have time for myself.. So last week i started.. I went to a few AquaFitness Classes, then i did an hour on a treadmill. This week i had a fitness evaluation and started MOBILEFIT. A program that maps out your workout with the equipment in the gym.. I like circuit training now. I can do this. This is do- able.. I can do this. I went this week at different times and i am feeling good about myself. Event though my assessment revealed numbers i didn't think were possible. But it is okay. I am making changes and changes take twice as long to change. This is a picture of me taken last summer. My boys are with me.