Getting Back to Our Normal

School has started backup, dropped my dad off at the airport, and lucky me i get to work tonight. I am excited, I haven't been to work in 7 days. Time to go make a difference in someones life. Or at least try to. Next week is one of the first meetings for the DANSKIN. I am sooooo excited and nervous. I have been regularly working out. I lost 4.5 lbs, in a month. With kids being sick and the stress of my dad around. I was happy with my achievement...UNTIL.. i saw a picture of myself. Why is it? Every time i think things are going better and i am looking better, I see my self for what i am. Overweight. It Just made me want to cringe up and eat something and crawl back in my hole. I hate this feeling. I don't like myself. I don't know when it happened or how, but i don't. I have to remember my mantra... NOT HELPFUL, NOT HELPFUL. I think, no make that i know i am my own worse enemy. I will beat this once and for all. Going to try and nap.. it's gonna be a very long night. I am hoping to therablog..