What a week..

This week was the weirdest week of emotions. Coming to terms with the fact that my mother's cancer has spread to her brain. She has been in the hospital for a week. Gone to many test and CT's to see what's what. They are planning to do palliative radiation for her mets in her brain. I found out today that all her other spots where unchanged. So the chemo did put some hold on some of the spots. The heme/onc radiologist is still checking all old total body scans to see if the mets were there early on. After a long conversation with my mom, i am not going home. She and i talked and i asked her what did she want, and she said if she has to have hospice she wants to come to Texas. And she wants my dad to sell the house. I pray he sells it... it's gonna be the death of him financially if he doesn't. Plus the selfish me want them here in Texas. the weather is so much better.. yah know.. Monday night after crying and twisting a turning, i ended up with on hell of a stiff neck. it was locked up regardless of the meds i took, heat or ice i kept on it. As i sit here and type this i can say its still tight. I tried to get an appt at the message therapist and she was booked all weekend through Monday. I was hoping for Tuesday, but she needs to get an adjustment. I guess she'll be in good form for me Wednesday. Tues, Wed, Thursday and Friday i just could not get out of bed. I eat everything in site.. i thought i was eating out of nerves or pity, turned out it wasn't it was just PMS. That made me feel a little better and to know i won't have my period for the Danskin. :) The little things that make women happy. Yesterday i clean.. and you'd never know looking at this house. But i did. But today.. My hubby and I went for a bike ride. almost 18 miles. It was great. The wind on the way back was brutal. But we made it. We came home and we took the boys down to San Marcos and canoed down the San Marcos River and drifted back. It was great. We borrowed a canoe, so size wise it was a tight fit, but it was fun. A GREAT weekend day in Central Texas!!!