Mr. President... I have a question..

What about all these CEO, CFO, Presidents, VP ( and whatever other bullshit corporate names this big wigs give themselves) - what about their retirement plans and all there bonuses? I'm never going to see a retirement at the rate i am going- I guess i will be lucky if i die before. I'll never see retirement. It'sv scary because i have no idea what we are going to do... no idea. Why do these people walk away with so much - why are we bailing them out.. Why are we not looking into the miss use of funds and all that??

WEEK 3-  Yippee!! still going strong and feel great. I went to my 'aquafit' class and all i could think about today was getting to the gym and working out. I had to rush through my gym portion of my workout because I only had 2 hours of child care. I have to admit- it is better then nothing.  I work out at the YMCA. It is so helpful that they have the child care- but i wish it was just 30 minutes more. Enough time to get in a work out and a shower.  That way i can head to the store afterwards. But i still got what i need done. Tomorrow- i have to work at night and they are coming to fix the alarm in the house.. should be interesting.. no sleep for the working. I better head off to bed then.  my obliques are sore tonight..

WEEK 2: Keeping on Track..... The weekend was busy at work. We had a full house in the hospital. I walked 2 1/2 miles both days at work alone. I used that as my cardio work out. I didn't feel guilty about not going to the gym. But i missed it and was so excited to go this am. Had a decent cardio class- Aquafit class and then did circuit training. Tried something different- instead of resting for 45 seconds i worked on another set of muscles. It was great. It made the workout fly. I had to rush or so i thought because i was getting getting close to the 2 hour limit the YMCA has for watching kids. But it was a good workout and a great day. I took the kids to the park after school today. It was a very cool day for September in Austin Texas.

Week down and starting a new week. It went well and i am feeling strong. I have been trying to eat well, but make the mistake of not eating breakfast and then become famished at lunch. So this week i will try to make that a goal. Making good choices for meals and eating breakfast.

Giving Time to Me... It's been a long time.

September 12, 2008 Okay, so here I am a few months or so until my 37th birthday, I look at myself in the mirror and don't recognize who i have become. I am easily 150lbs overweight. I don't like who i have become as a person. The last few years have been very stressful financially. When i sit here and type i realize- i made my priority to sit and eat and worry about what tomorrow will bring- which creditor is going to call... and it put me in a downward spiral of self pity and depression. I cracked a few months ago and sought the help of a professional He have me light. Someone with a different perspective on what i was going through and how i saw it. I came up with a mantra- HeLPFul- vs NoT HeLPFul... it is working and I am feeling better about myself. It gave me the self confidence i needed to take steps to improve my overall health. I Joined the YMCA!! I love it and they have programs that are me. They have a pool and water fitness classes. Most improtantly they have baby sitters.. i can have time for myself.. So last week i started.. I went to a few AquaFitness Classes, then i did an hour on a treadmill. This week i had a fitness evaluation and started MOBILEFIT. A program that maps out your workout with the equipment in the gym.. I like circuit training now. I can do this. This is do- able.. I can do this. I went this week at different times and i am feeling good about myself. Event though my assessment revealed numbers i didn't think were possible. But it is okay. I am making changes and changes take twice as long to change. This is a picture of me taken last summer. My boys are with me.