The last month

It has been absolutely surreal in some aspects. I think of my mom everyday. I miss her. I haven't cried that much. I had a moment when I was shopping wanted to ask her something and she wasn't there. I started to think about all the things I forgot to ask and tell her. I am still waiting for a sign. The funeral was good. Opened up another can of worms when I went home. So weird to be in the house without her there. Sad part her ashes are there while everyone is everywhere else. Christmas is going to be a challenge I know. I am just keeping focused and busy. We joined a different gym. Feeling disloyal to the YMCA but I need the next level. Looking forward to the new year.